I'm feeling unmoored Shout outs to Patrick who sent me a ted talk about chronic illness and using spoons as a metaphor to regulate energy- "Confronting the invisible" by Olivia Larner Her talk centers around the idea that most people don't see invisible disabilities What matters is not how other people react to me, but how I present myself . I control what I can control. As ability changes, what you can control probably also changes The frustration of becoming older and having your opinion be drowned out by a bunch of younger people's opinions. Being disabled is similar in that your opinion is drowned out by more able bodied people's I heard Noam Chomsky's podcast "Anarchism"- Noam Chomsky has a gravelly voice Rockstacker & Condor: East San Jose characters. rockstacker.com is a thing Olivia Lerner called chronic illness people "spoonies" I like the old-school rapper Spoonie Gee Spoonie Gee "Spoonin' Rap". I got that on twelve inch at Jerry's Tecords in Pittsburg. RIP Jerry. went there in fall 2000, that was a dope record store. the worlds largest all vinyl record store. Jerry Weber died two weeks agar at 73 Used to play "Spoonin' Rap" with Rick James "Cold Blooded" crunked out- those were the days! Thinking about buying a case of Bordeaux and eating steaks every night because of this stupid ad My stats showed and there are people listening to sequential episodes and on the one hand I'm like, don't listen too close I made easy food