In Gratitude Stories & Conversations with Rachel DesRochers

In Gratitude Stories & Conversations with Rachel DesRochers


29. Fear

June 08, 2020

Friends,
Lets just start talking about fear. I barely scratched the surface but I hope this episode fills you with hope, love and the understanding of how wonderful this one and precious life is.
Our fears are stopping us. Holding us back. Slowing us down. We see right now a powerful movement happening across our country where they are using their FEAR to create change and peace – so powerful. That reminder – we can use fear to propel us, to grow us, to teach us or to stop us. How are you using it?
This poem also, I shared today from Joy Harjo. A Native American poet. Such incredible words.
I Give You Back
Joy Harjo
I release you, my beautiful and terrible fear.
I release you. 
You were my beloved and hated twin, but now, I don’t know you as myself. 
I release you with all the pain I would know at the death of my daughters. 
You are not my blood anymore.
I give you back to the white soldiers who burned down my home, beheaded my children, raped and sodomized my brothers and sisters. 
I give you back to those who stole the food from our plates when we were starving. 
I release you, fear, because you hold these scenes in front of me and I was born with eyes that can never close.
I release you, fear, so you can no longer keep me naked and frozen in the winter, or smothered under blankets in the summer. 
I release you I release you I release you I release you. 
I am not afraid to be angry, 
I am not afraid to rejoice. 
I am not afraid to be back. 
I am not afraid to be white. 
I am not afraid to be hungry, 
I am not afraid to be full. 
I am not afraid to be hated. 
I am not afraid to be loved,
to be loved, to be loved, fear. 
Oh, you have choked me, but I gave you the leash.
You have gutted me but I have you the knife. 
You have devoured me, but I laid myself across the fire. 
I take myself back, fear. 
You are not my shadow any longer. 
I won’t hold you in my hands. 
You can’t live in my eyes, my ears, my voice, my belly, or in my heart 
my heart my heart my heart. 
But come here, fear.
I am alive and you are so afraid of dying.
 
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In Gratitude,
Rachel