How did Jay pretend to change when he really hadn't? In this episode, Lori asks 11 HARD QUESTIONS to uncover the difference between performing recovery and experiencing true, internal transformation.

I have that photograph of Christmas. That kid saw so many possibilities. I think he would've looked at me and said: wait, you're 38 years older than me and you're still doing the same stuff I'm doing?

The opposite of love is something OTHER THAN HATE. And when Lori stopped crying? That's when Jay finally got scared. - In this raw 26-minute conversation, Lori ask Jay 12 Questions about what really w

HONEST QUESTION: Did you ever think 'SHE'LL NEVER LEAVE ME, so I can keep doing this'? - Most partners wonder if their addict secretly believed they could get away with it forever. In this brutally ho

When addicts first get caught, most expect their partner to just move on: I'm sorry! I quit! let's never talk about this again! But here's the brutal truth: that mindset destroys any chance of real

Jay explains many deception tactics he used to hide his addiction. From robotic denials to fake confusion, playing dumb to calculated outbursts, this video exposes the manipulation patterns that betra

In this compelling episode, we tackle the challenging subject of emotional avoidance and addiction recovery. Jay opens up about his struggles with feelings of abandonment, insecurity, and boredom, whi

Jay opens up about the internal voice telling him to confess his porn addiction - and why he actively chose to ignore it for years. We explore: The pattern of CALCULATED DELAY What that "voice of

In this raw conversation, we expose why the lies addicts tell and the beliefs they hide behind increase betrayal trauma. Jay opens up about the shocking justifications for his deceit and the internal

After 15 years of addiction, lies, and hiding, Jay finally found BROKENNESS. Not in a loud, dramatic crash, but in a quiet, rock-bottom moment where he just couldnt keep lying about it... not to his