This meditation includes the poem Victor, from the beautiful book, The First Free Women: Original Poems Inspired by the Early Buddhist Nuns, by Matty Weingast:

Victor:
 
When everyone else was meditating, 
I’d be outside circling in the hall.
 
Finally I went to confess. 
I’m hopeless, I said. 
 
The elder nun smiled. 
 
Just keep going, she said. 
Nothing stays in orbit forever. 
 
If this circling is all you have, 
why not make this circling your home? 
 
I did as she told me, 
and went on circling in the hall.
 
If you find yourself partly in 
and partly out – 
if you find yourself drawn to this Path 
and also drawing away – 
I can assure you, 
you’re in good company. 
 
Just keep going. 
 
Sometimes the most direct path isn’t a 
   straight line.