I was breaking my rule and doing some thinking in between Crime Drama episodes on TV this week, and I asked myself?

What did I accomplish this week?

Last week was a trying week for me
Finishing up Master’s Thesis
Putting together the Self Master Lab Group coaching program that will launch soon
Corona Virus – Self-Quarantined
Protests over police violence

Initially, my response was nothing, nada, zip.

As I began to think about it more after moving through feeling sorry for myself and segueing weighing into harsh self-condemnation, I realized something
I had some significant experiences





Nothing I had planned to do for the week,
I think I only accomplished two of the dozen things that was on my weekly action plan



So you may be wondering, Michelle, what does this have to do with me?

I’m glad you asked
Let’s get into it.

Like I was saying

Have you ever been down on yourself and watching the thoughts in your mind gang up on you





And decide if you are going to be bullied by yourself or stand up for yourself and admit the truth and move forward

When I planned this week, I knew I would be super busy, because I have several projects that are due at the same time and I’m plowing through things,

Because I have to get these things done
Between life happening
Trying to complete too many projects at the same time
The world is exploding with its issues affecting me even though I have fought to distance myself from those things.

On top of the things I mentioned before

Master’s Thesis
Self-Mastery Lab group coaching program launch
Corona Virus
Protesting Police violence

I also have six other goals that I’ve classified in my planner as four goals because I don’t want to admit to myself that I’m trying to do too much.

But that’s me – all or nothing

What I realized is that

even though I have 24+ items to complete this upcoming week
because I didn't get the dozen things I planned completed last week
I had some very significant Small Wins achieved this week
I call them Small Wins

Not because they were insignificant in size
They were major in

Clearing my soul - the emotional & psychological weight that was lifted

Specifically -

 Self-Care

I allowed myself to feel every emotion that I was capable of feeling in the moment it occurred
I cried and when that became overwhelming
I looked for things to make me laugh
Listened to Gospel, Praise & Worship and Hip-Hop music

Staying up late

I wrote lots of responses to social media posts – that I didn’t send
Without editing, I spoke raw and truthful
Then I slept until I woke up and did the same things over and over again until

I conquered every emotion and said every word, I wanted to and needed  to say
Until – I didn’t have a need or desire to respond to a post, or forward breaking news, or cry

I didn’t bottle anything up – like I do a lot of time because it’s not something I should do, or I will hurt someone’s feelings, or that’s not behavior considered “proper.”



It was all about processing what I was seeing,