Hey friends, real talk ahead. I've been podcasting for four years and more than 200 episodes if you include my bonus episodes, which I do. And honestly, I'm burning out. I was watching Marc Maron's show recent and realized he has been podcasting for 10 years this  month and has over a thousand episodes. Holy crap that's a lot of talking. And I realized I don't know if I will make it to a thousand, or even five hundred.

I'm burned out. I have too many irons in the fire right now and each one is taking up a lot of my attention and offering new and exciting opportunities. The reason I started MIH was to meet other actors and moms in my community. But now my acting career has been pushed into the back burner because so many other things are getting priority. Am I still an actor? Technically yes. Do I still act? No. Not for years.

It's time to start making some decisions and changes around the future of MIH and my career in entertainment. I never thought I'd be a reporter again, and yet here I am breaking boundaries as the first plus size digital entertainment reporter at NBC LA. I love my job, but it's a lot of work. I love my podcast, but it's also a lot of work. As is creating content for social media, and all of the things that come with it. I also want to still be an active participant in parenting Chan and it feels like my work and business are overshadowing that.

I feel like I'm on a hamster wheel and I don't know why I can't get off or change directions. I just keep running and eventually something is going to give. It might be the podcast. Or it might be something else. Lord knows Chris has has heard me talk about this a lot lately and I'm sure he' like me to make a decision LOL  This rant doesn't mean that I'm unhappy with the amazing things that have come my way and opportunities that have come up. I'm still amazing at the things we get asked to do or be involved with. I just need to make a decision and rip off the bandaid. I go into detail about what's going on in this episode and I hope you enjoy it and know you're not alone if you're struggling with following your dreams, even if they are evolving.

What does your dream job and career look like these days? Thinking of making any changes? I'd love to hear from you! Don't forget to subscribe and leave a review for my podcast. It would mean a lot!