Hello and welcome to Aspiebloggen podcast episode 7. I am your host Tommy Eriksson. In todays episode it’s all about what it is like to podcast without passion. This is the podcast where I bring you my views on things, in an attempt to let my voice be heard and to grow my confidence. For too long I have not voiced my opinions on the things that matter to me but that will all change now.
Some of what I will bring up will be about asperger and autism related stuff since that is what my blog is about, but most will be my opinions on things and what is going on in my life. My website is at aspiebloggen.se. There you will find the show notes for each episode as well my other blog posts. The blog itself is in Swedish but this podcast and the corresponding show notes will always be in English.
Now let’s get started.
Todays episode is brought to you by the letter M.
So I’ve mentioned David Lewis who runs the podcast called The Audacity to Podcast before and how I find it inspiring. Well I might not have phrased it like that but yeah I like it. So one thing he has talked much about is POD or Passion, organization and dialog and how those are essential for podcasting. Well this episode will be all about what it’s like to podcast without any of that.
I’ve been watching a videoblog called EEVblog on youtube and I’m struck by how passionate the host Dave Jones is. I wish I could be like that but every time I try to read a script it sounds forced and not at all passionate. Well that is because I don’t really have any passion for things anymore. I have mentioned this before in some way but felt like revisiting the subject.
So what is causing my feelings of being down. I can’t find the script when I said it so it must have been in episode one which was not scripted. I just tried listening to it and couldn’t find the part and really didn’t want to listen to the whole episode. Man I sure hope I don’t loose too many listeners due to how crappy that episode is yet I don’t want to remove it and put a rerecording there. I want to show a possible progression of my capabilities as a podcaster.
So what’s going on is that 2 years ago I applied for disability pension. I wont go into the exact reason for it but since then all my days have been about waiting for a positive notice. Well the first instance turned it down so then I appealed it. The appeal was rejected as well. The was in 2013. Last year the case went to an administrative court or Förvaltningsrätten in Swedish. So more waiting for me. Last November it too got rejected. And now finally it is something called an administrative court of appeal or Kammarrätten in Swedish. Now that court is somewhat different. Before I know if it will even take on the case I have to get something called a probationary. At least that is what google translate called it. Anyway that is what I’m currently waiting for. If I get it then I might get an approval or appeal or whatever from the court, or I might not and if I don’t get it then case is closed.
So here I am sitting around waiting for time to pass so I can begin living. Because that is something that i’m not really doing at the moment. Living. Every day is just a way for me to occupy my mind until the day has passed so that a new day can begin and I might get a court appeal in the mail. Needless to say i hate weekends since there is no mail then. Now I have several things that interest me and that I want to get into but it is hard to find the will to do it. I mentioned the EEVblog before and I found it when I searched for Arduino stuff on youtube. I have seen some episode from it before which was about how stupid the idea of solar roadways are. The math in that episode made my head spin, I’m not an engineer, but you don’t have to be to know that solar roadways will never work.