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Philistines come together at Aphek, Israel is there, There is a military review, Philistines ask what they are doing there. Achish wonders, ‘isn’t this David’? defends him. Princes get angry and say that chances are David is going to turn on them in battle, so he aint going. Achish tries to make it right with David and says that he cant go to battle. David defends like “what? Ive been so good since I turned on my own people”. Achish says sorry- but you got to go bro. David says Ok and leaves.  

“But what have I done”? v8You camped with the enemy v1, You wanted their approval v2, You defected to the enemy v3, You were willing to fight against your own people v4, You treated the enemy well v 6 “I have not found evil in you” , You wanted to please the enemy leader  v7 “that you may not please the lords of the philistines”What have you done? Just about everything wrong possible. You used to say “touch not God’s anointed” and now you’re willing to fight your own people. You’re blaming the people for the indiscretions of a man and refusing to go to God. David should have just repented and went off to a cave again, but instead, he goes and camps up with the enemy again. What the heck David?But maybe you find yourself in the same cycle. You find yourself in the same rut. You wake up and find you’re in the enemies camp and you don’t know how you got there or how to get outSo what do you do? Don’t Ask “what have I done?” “Ask what have I done!”

What have you done? Have you Examined yourself?

David hadn’t been looking at his actions and desiresPsalm 139:23-24 Search me, O God, and know my heart; Try me, and know my anxieties; 24 And see if there is any wicked way in me, And lead me in the way everlasting.That’s the correct heart- it just wasn’t the heart that David had right at this momentNo, camp w the enemy, want their approval, defected, willing to fight against Israel, etcHad David examined himself in this moment- he would have found that there were some things that he needed to work on- Many people struggle with this- People overestimate their abilities and they think they are better than they are They lack self awareness- They can’t see their blind-spots- think they are farther alongAnd that’s not even their spiritual walk- No one else I know goes to church- I do!Instead of laying bare before the Lord asking him to reveal anything in you that needs changeLamentations 3:40 Let us search out and examine our ways, And turn back to the Lord;But David isn’t doing this. He’s resisting- “what have I done”- but not reflective

Missing the opportunity to grow from his failures. What does it mean to you?Are you reflecting? Are examining who you are and what you are doing?Many people struggle with this- they can’t face the reality of who they are and what they doBroken relationships, haughty attitudes, inconsistencies, hypocrisy, destruction, doubt2 Corinthians 13:5 Examine yourselves as to whether you are in the faith. Test yourselves. Do you not know yourselves, that Jesus Christ is in you?—unless indeed you are disqualified.A Christian should be spending time before God asking- Lord, what is it in me that you do no like that you want to change about me?Attitude. Disposition. Actions. Thoughts. Desires. Intentions. Thoughts. Actions.Lord, why do I do this and what can you do in me to fix it? How am I contributing to it?1 Cor 11:28 But let a man examine himself, and so let him eat of the bread and drink of the cup.We’re supposed to be doing this before communion! It’s the opportunity to reflectPeople will not go to the doctor because they are afraid to know what is up- heart even worseI am inconsistent with my habits. I sometimes think evil thoughts. Lack empathy, cut people off to protect my heart,