Catching the morning light. Today was the first day post-Ice-Bath-Meditations. I didnt really have a plan for this morning except to listen and watch. When I awoke, it was still in the 4 a.m. range.

Day 31: (Air: 40 / H2O: 45) I step out of reactivity and I step into the ice bath, allowing myself to accept and feel what is in my body. I embrace what is present. I step out of reactivity and int

Day 30: (Air: 35 / H2O: 45) Attitude of Gratitude Being with life as it is as I am Eyes of a child Wonder and awe Releasing labels and judgment Seeing and feeling for the first time Welcoming

Day 29: (Air: 34 / H2O: 46)Embracing vulnerabilityPracticing stepping into the clearingBeing welcoming, loving presence to all that arisesWorking with opposites/polaritiesCore human needs: to be see

Day 28: (Air: 38 F / H2O: 35 F)Feel itI didnt quit. Im just not smoking today.Echoes. Connection.Hear. Speak. Remind. Forget. Hear. Speak.I cant take tomorrows ice bath, today.Do I have what

Day 27: (Air: 39 / H2O: 35)Here I am now I am here I am now I amCome to your sensesBeing welcoming, loving presenceBeing with life as it is as we arePracticing presenceLearning to trust ourselvesI

In March of 2020, I was on my way to ending my life. As I drove toward the backcountry, despair gripped my whole being and I had decided to make it all just stop. In the midst of my desperation, I he

Day 25: (Air: 36 F / H2O: 33 F)Intention guiding and supporting commitmentStay awake, alert, and openNoticing and being with the present experienceWorking with the past and future in the presentSitt

Day 24: (Air: 33 F / H2O: 33 F)GratitudeLoved and LovingWho am I? Where am I? When am I? What am I?Watching the mind, feeling the body.Who is watching? Who is feeling?I am unchanging loving awarenes

Day 23: (Air: 36 F / H2O: 33 F)Step out of reactivity and into the moment.Accept and feel what is in the body.Embrace what is present.Breathing in, I calm myself; breathing out, I smile.Unconscious