Seeking Infinite Jest: My Road to the PhD

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Starfish Semester
(click the player above to hear “Chicago” by Sufjan Stevens) It’s Monday, about 2:30 in the afternoon, and I am lying on my bed, arms and legs spread out, like a starfish resting on a rock at the bottom of the ocean. I say this every sem
What I Think About When I Think About Haruki Murakami’s “What I Talk About When I Talk About Running”
One of the strangest feelings academia produces is waking up, looking at a blank page, and beginning to write page one of two hundred. I’m not even sure how to describe it- intimidating? flummoxing? disheveling? discombobulating? A lot of “di
Lying Flat in the Park
Lying Flat in the Park (A One Act Play) [Lying Flat (tangping; 躺平) is a social movement happening now in response to China’s post-industrial period. The movement grows out of youth protest against a brutal work culture, often referred to 9-9-6, from
I PASSED MY EXAMS!!! (Part 3 of 3)
In this three-part series of posts, I shared my experiences studying for candidacy exams. There was a point where I seriously thought this was never going to happen, stuck in a timeless space where goals and deadlines had no meaning. It was that last mont
My Medical Narrative: Part 2 of 3
In my last post, I talked about studying for exams and what it’s like to study medical humanities. As much as I enjoy reading the books on my list, it’s really easy to feel disconnected from the text when you are not suffering from the illness
Studying for Candidacy Exams During a Pandemic (Or, Why I Love the Show Community): Part 1 of 3
I just finished my third year of my doctoral program at Ohio State. There’s so much to write about, like teaching online during a whole year of quarantining, studying for candidacy exams, and moving into the phase of dissertation writing and the aca
First Day of Spring Semester, 1/11/21
Today is exactly the halfway mark of my program. It's mind blowing, feeling like the time between the start of my program now feels both tiny and gigantic.
Drinksgiving 2020
Years ago, when I was working on my undergrad degree, I learned about Drinksgiving. I worked at a local bar on the weekends, a place made up of mostly locals and regulars. I’ve been to plenty of bars, but working at one, and being an aspiring writer
Olentangy Trail
Last year, I jogged along the Olagntangy trail during Autumn Break. I was in my first year at OSU, still learning what my program was going to shape into. This year, I’m doing the same, having a better sense of where I’m at and why I’m h